The bucket of Water and the Sun
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A bit of historical context always helps. So I'll start with mine to explain that bucket of water.
Long ago, I left my religion Christianity, disenchanted by its dogma. I specifically hated it when the Bible preaches that if you don't place your entire faith in Jesus, then you're bound to hell no matter how righteous you have been. I thought: what?? If your life has been spent doing good things for the world, then ultimately it comes to nothing if you don't believe in Jesus Christ? What kind of 'merciful' and 'loving' God is he? Only a tyrant demands that you submit before him. I don't want to bow before such a tyrant even if he holds the keys to heaven.
I began to explore other religions. I explored Hinduism and like the idea of divinity in all things of the universe. However the caste system is a big turn off. I explore Islam and was instantly repelled. I found that it was worser in its dogma than Christianity and very misogynistic. There are verses which calls for imposing Islam to the entire world and killing those who leave Islam.
However, after leaving religions, I found that there was certain emptiness in my heart. Something that religion gave me was missing. I found the answer: Spirituality. It is often a term which was used interchangably with religion, but now I understood its true meaning: the feeling of connectedness with the universe. I haven't found any logic to explain it, because it isn't the logical part of your mind that deals with it. You just need to allow your heart to guide you in your spirituality - it will come along.
Religion in the end, I found, was just a collection of spiritual experiences by ancient prophets - but like any other man made stuff, there are flaws. Like "follow me or go to hell" dogma of the three semitic religions or the caste system of Hinduism. Spirituality meanwhile is a ocean - there is the limitless universe and you can only connect yourself to so much. Religion is like a man who took a bucket of water from that huge ocean.
What about the sun? Well, its the current object that I'm connected to. The huge factory of nuclear fusion reaction that gives out heat and light that had been powering all the life in our planet Earth. Without it, we wouldn't have existed at all. And I've dedicated myself to using renewable energy to counter global warming caused by fossil fuels. Hence I call myself the Solarii Knight or the warrior of the Sun.